me 50% of the time: I want to do well in school and make my parents proud and wear pretty clothes and do yoga and drink green tea and be in control of my life
me the other 50%: I want to drink too much and not care about anyone and kiss boys whose names I don't remember and always go out with my friends and be out of control
me actually: *sitting in my bed, tumbling, listening to music or watching tv, eating, crying, doing nothing all day long*
[[MORE]] I was right. We broke up because he was going back home… But, it’s not so bad. It’s not the same as with Ryan…because he didn’t stop dating me because he didn’t like me or care about me anymore. We stopped dating because we cared about each other…and because we both know that he can’t take the distance and my sexual energy is a little too...
[[MORE]] Welp, it happened yesterday. Didn’t go quite as planned, but in the best way possible. I think if it had, it wouldn’t have been half as fun as it was. I can’t wait until next week.
[[MORE]] So, I have plenty of condoms, regular lube that’s condom compatible, and four kinds that are edible/flavored. I also bought disposable menstrual cups since I’m on the rag and don’t want to get “transmission fluid” on his penis. Even though he basically gave me the go ahead .-. I’m also nervous as FUCK. Here’s to hoping that he’s just as...